I’m being ugly for awhile.
I’ve never really been a show off. I’ve never tried particularly hard to draw attention to myself or anything. Usually however I can at least be considered quite striking in a largely Asian population, due to my features. So i tend to draw some amount of attention when I don’t seek it.
In recent days due to my severe bout of illness (mostly gone now!!) I looked like shit. And i didn’t care about looking like shit because you know, I was like fighting for my life in the throes of death (or at least it appeared to me that way.) My hair is also at a very unfortunate middle ground right now, not shorn enough to be a statement but too short to be a pixie. ARGH.
I also have a new problem. Before my illness I had a patch on my lip that was recovering from peeling. My illness caused severe dehydration, and now the patch (half my lip) is kind of swollen and covered in sores. Urgh gross. It looks like I am becoming a zombie.
Attractive people (who must be pleasant – no point being pretty and a bitch) do get more from life. Now that I feel exceptionally ugly people don’t generally go out of their way to be nice to me and all that, but guess what, it’s perfectly okay.
I feel that a lot of people in the world all try too hard to be beautiful. They seem to think that being beautiful is the most important thing in the world, the be all and end all. If not, why would people/celebrities constantly get plastic surgery to make themselves look better? And I hate the praise ‘You’re beautiful’ when the person in question is actually not. Or like, ‘everyone is beautiful in your own way.’
No, you may not be beautiful, but you may have amazing eyeshadow skills, or a creative mind, or an amazing personality, or lots of charisma, or something. I mean, Bill Murray is not very dashing, is he? But he’s an amazing, A list actor all the same. So don’t say I’m beautiful, because I know I’m not right now, and that’s completely okay with me. It should be okay with you too.